closesniper

My barriers are breaking down as I feel my body going numb and my heart shattering when all those I love turn me down and my heart gives out I have no one to love and wish i had no heart no need to love I just wish someone would care to show me it is okay that I am good enough to show me I was wrong the pain I went though was nothing at all

what the fuck is the point when the ones you want to love the ones your willing to hold out for break you down and make you worthless when you realize you are nothing but failure and deserve nothing and you so weak and you want to hide but your far to drain to move when you have a bed but it isnt a home and the one with your heart shoves it back and your left there in silence knowing she would never want it and you want to leave the world to a place you can feel at ease and no one will worry if they ever did find you for I know ending it all will bring more tears to those that care when I dont deserve it when I am to hurt but dont want

I know your there enjoying your time even though I know I will always be a friend you blow off my pleads of my heart I see you next to me as I rather be with you than at my house because without you I will never have a home and you mean more to me than anything else but cant you see how much I care and how much I wish you to take me heart but I feel your always pushing me away I know you want to be my friend although I want you in my arms and I know nothing will change just wish you would accept my heart before it withers away die and I am just the shell of a man one that cared for you one that loves to see your smiles before I turn to

I graduated from school I always thought i was dumb just being average but those I thought was smarter follow the same path and fall behind I could swear It wasn't that hard sure I studied when I needed to but most of the time i was just watching the clock waiting for the class to end but now I graduated and those I thought would follow fall behind and it hurts to see how the ones that deserve to pass end up failing but yet those I thought would don't I don't know how and don't know why I could be the one that graduated it is hard to see and hard to follow but sometime life is not linear and you will not know what it expect so never f

when your life is based for love and there is no one in your heart what is there to strive for when you just want to love and never chosen to love why must I keep on going when my life serves no purpose and those I love turn away I am left in the cold when you feel that there is no end with your heart shattered within and you feel no love anymore and no one is there to hold no one to keep you up you just fall to the ground with no strength with no will you lay there emotionless as tears run down that no one sees the invisible pain the suffering within a a loveless heart knowing it will never be chosen that it will never be good enough

I hate that house that evil house that takes away my happiness takes away my loves that evil house that cursed house that takes away everything that means anything I just wanted to go by I saw my mom sitting on the porch the house that took her now it caused my love to die again and teaches me that no one wants me no one will need me and I will forever be alone that cursed house